Someway or another, Christmas has started to lose its meaning already.
Sometimes, when you look back and expect everything to be just as beautiful as they once were, you find that they aren't anymore, and might never be anymore.
I had a caroling christmas this year, just like last year. It was fun, knowing juniors and singing the hardest I could.
I'm glad that things have been better, and everything looks happier once again.
I hope so at least. Perhaps when your heart has been stabbed and hurt so many times before, emotions just doesn't come to you the natural way like they used to.
Just when I thought I could finally take a breather, more things start to head this way.
School's starting soon, the very thought of it just scatters my thoughts.
R papers, surviving in school, friends, orientation, choir.
So many things to juggle at the same time.
It's so hard not to break down sometimes and reach out for help.
But then again, would it matter if you did cause nobody will stop by to help.
This year has been so much of a rollercoaster, my life will never ever be the same again.
Sorrow. Joy. Anger. Pain.
The multitude of emotions I've felt this year simply amazes me everytime I look back at it.
Please, may the new year be a good one.
Inside, something says to me that it cannot take another year of setbacks and pain.
I really wish to myself sometimes that someone could just pick me up from this mess and point the way to walk.
I am sick and tired of being perpetually lost, searching in the endless unknown to understand this life and finding a way.
I just can't do it anymore.
I don't have the strength to go on.
What's worse if that you don't even have a chance to give up.
So what do I do now?
How I wish Santa existed and I could wish for an answer for my present this year.
Well this may be late but yeah. Merry Christmas.
May everyone have a happy new year.
Wouldn't it be nice if the people you really treasured felt the same way as you did sometimes?
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
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