I live in an world full of ironies and complexities I cannot comprehend.
Our lives are just big ironies themselves.
We long to be rich and give up our health, yet we end up spending all our money to be healthy again.
We dream of the future so much yet when we get there, we dream of going back to the past.
We all want to grow up, to gain freedom, only to long to be a kid once again when you are 17.
What is this little evil that festers within each and every one of us. This thing that turns us all into cold mindless heartless robots.
How do you feel when one day, you walk to your friends, hoping to be greeted and all, but all you got was cold awkward stares at you.
How would you feel if you tried to grab hold of their attention, you try to talk to them, but all they did was to make you feel invisible.
So much so that I really wished I was.
All humans are born with emotions, but sometimes we get so self centered that we only focus on trying to make ourselves happy, building our happiness upon other people's miseries.
Now my definition of a friend is all fuzzed up.
Would you consider such people your friend?
What do you do? Of course you try to run away from them.
you walk away, only to realise people probably never noticed or never bothered.
How would you feel if this was your CCA?
A place where you were supposed to find your closest friends and have lots of fun.
Perhaps it doesn't actually matter, because you probably are having too much fun excluding people to know.
Why have we all turned into such monsters?
Monsters so overwhelmed and self absorbed in their selfishness.
Worse still, some of us preach about the wonderful ways of God and his teachings and yet behave in such a pretentious manner.
Perhaps it was the bane of intelligence, the ability to think and act for ourselves.
We manipulate things to our advantage, we always try to get the best for ourselves, sacrificing others.
Everyday all these horrors spin me round and round, to the extent of distorting what's right and what's wrong.
I really hate it, I really can't deny it.
What's the worse thing about everything, is that it only takes a small amount of effort on everyone's part to make things a whole lot better.
What's so difficult about STOP trying to form cliques and shut other people out?
What's so difficult about giving a little care and concern for others everyday in our little ways?
I guess the most difficult thing for all of us, is to admit that we are all behaving in such a selfish way.
To admit we have turned into these monsters.
To know that we shouldn't go on thinking we are always right.
Easy to say, but nearly impossible to knock them into people's heads.
Oh and I realised it wasn't VJ who had a big problem.
It was the choir all along.
But all day we put on our masks and parade like clowns.
I really love singing, I really do.
But tell me how to keep going on pretending I'm alright and happy.
The whole thing's a bubble of lies already,
but when will it pop?
I wonder.
Probably never, since everyone's having such a happy and fun time in choir every single day.
oh well.
"I love vjchoir =)"
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
holy innocent's pri.xinmin sec. vjc.
Vjchoir! =D
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