In loving memory of my beloved mp3.
I lost my Mp3.
I think this week must be the worse week of my life. I never felt so drained and downtrodden before over some material possession. When I realised my mp3 was gone the world just crashed down on me. Why must I lose something so dear to me now? To think that I'll probably be absolutely devastated when I receive my O level results this friday, what's left in this world for me to be happy about?
Life's just like a tumbling washing machine, all jumbled up. I really don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not, I don't even know what do I want to do in life. Frankly I don't even know if I'm even good enough for anything. The feeling of uncertainly just sucks, and trying to find a direction to walk just makes me so vexed. Something just tells me my results will be really bad and I'll end up somewhere I don't like. I know it may sound pessimistic and all, but everytime I try to convince myself things are not so bad, reality would prove otherwise. I'm feeling really quite tired now, I don't even know how I've managed to survive so far. Everyday's just a monotonous affair. Thinking about it makes me depressed, but trying to ignore it will only be worse as it festers inside me. Somehow I think I sound extremely confusing even to myself, perhaps my english's just bad, as all aspects of me are. I really wanna know what I should do, and I'm really afraid I might take a wrong step and end up with countless regrets when I'm old.
I'm starting to miss my mp3 real bad. Sigh.
Guess I have to stop and go sleep now, there's CHOIR tomorrow. It's really starting to drain my energy, coupled with all that worrying for my results and stuff.
I don't know if its right to feel this way, but something about you tells me that its no longer will.
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
holy innocent's pri.xinmin sec. vjc.
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