Death isn't the scariest thing on earth. Loneliness is.
47 days have passed since I started school in new and unknown environment, and for 47 days I've been trying to find a emotional foothold. Perhaps I'm not good at making new friends, or perhaps she was right. Junior college will never be as memorable as secondary school or primary school.
So much for groping around in the dark though. At the end of the day you realise that everyone's already walking with someone else and you're the only one sitting down, hoping someone will come and pick you up. I hate to say it but yeah I'm already feeling all the happiness and positiveness being drained out of me. How lousy of me huh. Guess I don't exactly like floating around like I am now. Everyone tells me its just me and time will change everything. Looking around and stuff I realised nothing will pretty much change. Was it a mistake to stay in VJ? I found out that things that I thought was worth staying for were all illusions. Fallacies. To think I've fallen for this ignis fatuus.
Remember the someone I talked about? That little hope of his was killed not by the ravaging storm of time and obstacles, but with a little chunk of metal that rings and lights up . And so he tried calling out to this little breath that gave it life to begin with, but his pleas were drowned in the endless clickings from the little chunk of technology.
You were right. Expecting too much and forcing yourself to conform in order to gain something that is fragile and inconstant isn't worth it. There isn't any point trying to force people to walk alongside when all you need is to learn how to walk alone. Sometimes you can't make it on your own. But you just have to learn.
ItoldyoueverythingIwanted,
butyouchosetopretendyoudidn'tknow.
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
holy innocent's pri.xinmin sec. vjc.
Vjchoir! =D
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