Hooray i'm finally ill ! lolx?
i know it's weird that i'm happy being ill, but it really feels good cos i've been sleeping at home ALL day long. A pure luxury =D
I've never taken an MC for ages already, years in fact, but today my throat was so painful and my nose was dripping like mad that i had no choice but to stay at home.
I knew this was coming though, cause during my music lesson yesterday i had a headache that was really sucking my concentration.
I guess i can't say anything cause I shouldn't blame my poor performance on my illness =D
I ended up doing nothing much for the day except to sleep and sleep and more sleep.
I'm sucha pig~ lolx.
Too bad this little 'break' would only be for a day, or less cause I have to settle down at my study table soon and mug.
Reality's such a harsh thing, it's little wonder so many people have resorted to different methods to escape from it eg. drugs, game etc.
Somehow I'm starting to like being an introvert, to keeping quiet and not talk excessively like I do now. I think everyone would be happy to read this cause finally they'll stop hearing my irritating talking and singing. heh.
Being too open really makes you look stupid after awhile.
You entertain people, you talk to people and try to make friends with them.
But all you get in return are nothing more than wry smiles and wary glances.
Now I see why some of my close friends choose to be selfish.
I used to hate the way the always think of themselves and mock at people who don't.
I too, used to dislike people who always displayed their mood swings and vented them on their peers.
But to think of it, it is them who ends up getting the most out of their lives.
I still firmly believe everything's so fake and they're nothing more than facades.
Just like how some of my friends pretend to be so nice and caring to the opposite sex so that they can win them over and perhaps toy with them for awhile.
Perhaps only when you are of use to someone, will that someone then be nice to you and stuff like that.
They either go for your money, go for the help and comfort you can give them, or perhaps they like you.
Maybe I'm no better at all.
Sigh.
I wonder when I can let her know, but i'm just too scared of rejection and pain. perhaps she's attached and all i'm going after is just another misleading dream. Maybe I'll just tell her after my exams, when we will then have to part as we graduate. Sigh...
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
holy innocent's pri.xinmin sec. vjc.
Vjchoir! =D
Share your thoughts...