2 more days to perth. i'm supposed to be excited right?
saddest thing is I haven't recovered from my cough and flu
plus I'm still feeling so tired from all the activities so far
I guess that's what you get from a 'SCHOOL holiday"
I'm sure all of us know that a school holiday in the present time and age differs GREATLY from HOLIDAYS.
In fact, my life is SO extremely pathetic i don't even remember when I had a holiday at all.
2 weeks of lessons during SCHOOL holidays. endless amount of homework that I HAVE to bring to perth to complete. As well as trying freaking hard to handle my voice and piano lessons.
singing lessons today kinda made me feel real guilty, as if i've been wasting my teachers time.
He said I had a good voice but my attitude is lacking.
really felt like telling him all the hundred thousands of things that really wears me out everyday.
But i knew it was just excuses in fact.
But are they?
I'm not god, or superman.
I don't even think that they would like having to do so many million things within such short time and with a weak body that falls sick when you don't need it to.
This little flu and cough is really sapping me of my energy.
I can't afford that, that's why these few weeks have been a torture for me.
I see the line that defines the my limit, as I unwillingly walk slowly towards it.
I need help man, take all these away from my life.
The school has gone insane, education no longer seeks to educate.
It's purpose is different altogether.
Rising cases of mental illnesses?
I'm not surprised.
After all that's what the system we're subjected to every single day wants us to become.
Mechanical , brainless robots.
I'm not cut out for this crap, serious.
I feel no passion towards anything, my love for music is already starting to be stifled, my brain buckling under this immense torture.
So what if we pass through the O levels and get good grades?
By then our lives are so controlled and our personalities would have been moulded into lifeless, inflexible people with no desire to push the extra mile.
Why doesn't anyone get it?
Or perhaps they are too tired to resist this vicious attempt to snuff out the last flicker of joy in our lives.
Maybe it's a little exaggerated.
I guess this is my way of expressing my dislike towards all the bad things in life.
Maybe I should write about the good things instead.
Which can actually be counted with my fingers and toes.
hahax.
off to perth soon =D
gotta rest.
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
holy innocent's pri.xinmin sec. vjc.
Vjchoir! =D
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