What a stupid day today has been.
Hahax, weird too.
Went for choir and got embarrased lolx.
Wellx it's partially my fault I went to disturb brandon, but at least I did in because he wasn't moving and I wanted to make him walk right?
yup yup, good intentions.
Ended up getting snubbed by the same few ppl who can't wait to see me fall.
Wellx, I don't deny that I am sad that I'll be leaving, but there's this compelling urge to leave too.
Probably because it'll relieve me of some pain.
It's really amazing how unpredictable life can be.
It's just like a roulette, you never know where your life would be.
Suddenly you could be the most famous celebrity in the world, the next moment, shunned and spat at.
Previously I mentioned about how syf is coming.
Wellx, in fact, it is nearer than ever before.
In a blink of an eye. Choir for me in Xinmin is over.
What am I supposed to say? Am I supposed to be sad?
I don't know.
There's this part of me inside, fond of all the wonderful memories. Melizo II, Syf 2003, Melizo III. All the wonderful times I used to haf back when I was sec 1 and 2.
Another part of me inside can't wait to leave. Free from the burden, the heavy load I've been carrying all along.
I'm sure many would be happy to see me leave too. But what I can't bear is those who have spent time being my friend.
Guess I would stand by the statement I haf said. I won't be guilty since I've tried my best.
It's such a pity. How things have changed so much over the years.
Guess I didn't do the right thing. that's why it's like this.
I'm in such a dilemma. haish.
After all I'm finally stepping down, and I've done what I am supposed to do.
There were happy times though, planning the camp, paintin the in de dark of e night costume, so on and so forth.
I guess I can't have an ideal ending to this.
So much for my happy ending. (ohh ohhhh[avril =D])
ahhx, laming again.
YOU, STOP READING ALL THE stupiD cRap dAnnY's TYPING!
lolx.
Life's so cruel. I've gone one big round, preaching, telling myself life is great.
Picking myself up, after ppl told me it isn't so bad. I'm not so bad.
So I foolishly believed.
I want to. But in the end everything goes one big damned round and back to the original point.
I can't run away from what I am. Can't lie man.
But I still want to be happy. Since I'm so useless, might as wellx make myself happy. Hohohohohohohohohoho.
Depression's such a tempting vicious thing.
I want to be happy. boohoo.
Guess I need to find things that make me happy.
It's been like, 8 months since I ever felt happy?
I've never did, even if I was playing, chatting, smiling like an idiot, out with my friends.
There's still this lock that binds my heart
Set me free.
I'm too young to be thinking this way, Life has many things left for me to discover.
I'm just thinking too much.
Yupx, I am.
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
holy innocent's pri.xinmin sec. vjc.
Vjchoir! =D
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