All right, enough is enough.
I'm determined to snap myself out of all these depression once and for all.
Even though I know nobody would even bother what I'm doing, I'm gonna start an 180 degree paradigm shift, for the good of my life.
I feel that I've wasted so much time, my life is dead, my grades are dead, and I've dwindled to being just a irritating pest in the eyes of many.
I'm not going to be pathetic. I'm not going to be just a worm.
It's going to hard I guess, since everything in my life saddens me.
My school life, my CCA, the look my friends give me.
But that isn't enough to ruin me and cause me to be miserable.
I'll stand and walk on, even if I most probably have to walk alone.
It's stupid to be sad over whether ppl cares about you, the world is selfish,
there's no meaning to bother so much about other people when they don't care much about you.
I'm not going to be so concious anymore, if I'm not pleasant to the eye, I guess it's just plain normal.
I realised when you are no longer chatting or talking a person, or no longer have a rather superior position in the heart of the person, you are just plainly forgotten.
So what's the point of trying so hard to be nice to a person, sometimes you're just a puppet, a mere clown in their eyes.
Once you offend them, or seem to be just a plain unworthy fellow, you're just eliminated from their friends list.
Cruel, selfish. But that's just how the world works.
yes I hate it, but the world is unfair.
If you're not handsome, you're neither tall nor strong. you're just a worm.
people don't even care if you don't talk to them or help them anymore.
it suxs man. suxs suxs. But guess what?
It DOESN'T matter!
I've seen past those shallow creatures. I've seen friendship tt's real
or at least more precious.
I don't see the point of acting like a fool, saying hi to a person tt doesn't even care of want you to talk to them.
What a big fat farking fool i've been.
No longer going to bother about them, even if it means neglecting many.
It's not like they even care about what I do or say.
well i think it's because i'm saying all this in a fit of a moment.
Lately I really think that I'm really foolish, thinking people talk to you and be your friend once you try hard enough to be theirs.
The outcome is always the same, the person would already have some 'handsome' boyfriend or some older guy, all of which are ten times more important that I am.
So why bother about them right? hahax.
I'll still be friends lah, just tt i won't be so stupid as to really think I'm someone they will think of, or care for.
I'm gonna be cheerful! yes i really am. I am I am!
Those who look down on me, just you wait. I'm just going to prove you all wrong.
-Me-
Danny Wong
04.07.89
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